And Just Like That.

So I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to approach this. At first I was going with sad but why sad. I say fuck this let me get angry with it cause I am mad. So why cover up this emotion, is it cause I wouldn't want to say anything that offends people. yeah that'll be the fucking day.

Ok well...I think I've come to that point where I've grown out of my friends again. Damn this will be the second set this year alone. So I guess I'm just seeing where I belong. who's gonna put up with my bullshit and whose bullshit I can stand.
I'm a hard person to get along with that for damn sure. Ask around. But at the same time I'm easy to get along with. Again ask around.

Not sure really how to feel. Mad...yea a little, I feel a bit used, but that's my own fault, as selfish as I am I'm just as generous. So for them to act this way after everything I've done, fucking irks me. but more at myself then them.

It's all of a sudden an issue for my lil one to be around. I dropped by their place today to pick up my computer, we were gonna run in and run out. 5 minutes tops if that. And the lil speech I got about "warning them if she's coming with" rubbed me all the wrong way. I gathered my belongings quietly and with a "catch me later" I walked out.

Here's the thing, if you know me well enough, then you know that when I shut down in the middle of a conversation, I have: (1) stopped listening to whatever it is your saying and (2) have begun nodding my head agreeing to whatever it is your saying (but remember I'm not listening) this only means I'm leaving pissed off but you won't know about it cause my fuck you smile that creeps across my face looks a lot like my I'm good smile.
Now normally, if ya say something that just doesn't sit well with me I'll be the first to let you know but there are times when a different approach is necessary and today felt like one of those times.


why would they assume she wouldn't be with me? when she's always with me. I don't know what we did but if my lil one isn't welcome then I'm not welcome, with or without her. fuck that. My lil one always come first.

"Know when it's time to let people go."